PRETTY, PLEASE

These photographs, from the ongoing series Pretty, Please, are begging you to look. Envelop me with your eyes and do not let go.

When I was in my thirties I heard the expression "Invisible Forties." I couldn't imagine how sexually inconsequential I’d feel throughout this decade.

This series is interwoven with my domestic existence. I’m a devoted partner and constant caretaker. Despite expansive growth, something has dimmed. The need for pleasure is no longer a priority.

Midlife is like a second adolescence filled with feelings of uncertainty regarding sexuality. Our hearts may be deeply connected to a long-term partner but our bodies get bored. Turning the camera on myself has allowed me to take stock as a chapter closes.

I want to remain vibrant. I want my body to be useful. Disappearing is not an option.